Meal trays were brought to each cell. DeAnna didn't feel like eating much. All
she could think about was her boys. How she loved them so and hated the fact that she could not be with them. She wondered
where they were and what they were doing. She prayed to God they were doing all right. She hated that they had to suffer through
all this. She began to wish she would of gave them up when they were young. She felt she had been selfish in wanting to keep
them she loved them so. If she would of gaven them up at least they would of had a stable home with a mother and father image.
But it was also the thought that when they were older they would of wondered why they were given up. But did she do the right
thing by keeping them and trying so hard to keep them all together and failed? That was the question she now wondered about.
She just did her best to hold onto the thought of getting out and being with them once again. It was all she had to hold onto.
Days and nights just dragged by. Time seemed to be a eternity when you were just locked
in a cell by yourself. All you had was time to think. She cried most every night longing to be with her boys.
Finally one morning all they women were to be moved to the main cells. It had been two weeks
but felt like two years. They all lined up outside their cells and were marched to the main cells. There were four women to
each room with two bunks. The room DeAnna was placed in she had the top bunk with a woman they called Rocky a black girl around
her age. Each cottage cell had four cells on the top floor and a bathroom. And four cells on a downstairs floor with
a bathroom. The main floor had tables which most of them played cards all day with a tv which came on after breakfast and
went off at 9 pm when they were all sent to their cells for lock down. Each morning at 6 am they were served breakfast then
had to go to their rooms and make their beds. Each bed was checked every morning and had to be made just right. They were
not allowed to lay in them during the day. But DeAnna would sit up against the wall and read books and doze out sitting up.
She didn't feel like hanging on the main floor to watch tv or play cards. She liked being alone in her room through the days.
Other cell mates tried to get her to come watch a movie or play cards but she refused. She got into her mediations and reading.
Doing her best to keep her mind set at getting out.
Rocky made advances toward her. She was a dike and liked other women. DeAnna did her best
to keep from losing her cool with her. She only had a few months of time to do. There were some there for robbery and some
others even for murder. So some had years or even life. So it was those ones who would push the others with short time
to do. If you messed up you could get time added to your sentence.
Rocky's girlfriends from downstairs would sometimes come up into Rocky's bunk. And being
playing their little head games with DeAnna trying to piss her off. The one day DeAnna was at the end of her rope and left
the room slamming the cell door behind her. She went into the bathroom pist off. Rocky followed her acting all kinda cocky
and asked her why she slammed the door. DeAnna knew she didn't want to fight. She'd be thrown in lock down and time added
to her sentence. So she did her best to blow it off and said the wind must of slammed the door. To her relief Rocky went for
that. And said ok she wanted to make sure DeAnna wasn't trying to start no shit! Rocky went back to her cell and DeAnna was
just thinking to herself how she would of loved to turn lose on the girl. And it was only God keeping her cool together for
her.
They would get time outside in the yard. There were a couple women she kinda hung out with in the yard. They just sit
and smoke cigerattes staying away from the others. There were so real head cases in there. DeAnna couldn't believe it. There
was one woman as old as her grandma and they said she had killed her grand kids. Wow! She looked like a sweet old lady. Who
would think she could do something so evil.
Meals were served in a cafateria they all had to line up and were served one at a time. There were over a hundred women
so the line was long. Each dorm was let out one at a time. DeAnna only ate once a day. You were allowed to skip meals and
not go to the cafateria. But sometimes she'd go just to get out somewhere. There was a female guard that always seemed to
pick on her. She heard about some of the women guards coming on to prisoners. DeAnna had never been with a women and never
wanted to be. And she hated the fact that there was so much of that going on in prisons. DeAnna knew the shift that guard
was on so she did her best to skip those meals. She knew the guards could make your time there hard. And even get time added
if you didn't do as they wanted. Life was bad enough being raped by a man. But being raped by a woman??????????
DeAnna kept her calendar she made on her wall. With some pictures she was allowed to keep of her boys and one of Anthony.
He wrote to her and sent her money. She loved getting his letters. And she always wrote him back. She had them taped
by her pillow.
